"So lost inside my mixed state mental health "

Ever since I turned 21 I have thought about what my adult life has in store for me. Trying to figure out how to grow up but not lose the child in you and still enjoy life unlike a lot of people who don't seem to. Yesterday I went to visit my friend Noah, his beautiful 5 year old girl and adorable little boy. They are the wildest, happiest, hyper kids I have ever met. I don't think Noah realizes this or did it intentionally but he has figured out life as much as it's capable of doing. A lot of people will go through out life not knowing if they will have anyone to grow old with, love them to their fullest. He has 2 wonderful human beings who love him for just being their and caring for them. He now has a reason to get up every single day. Whether it's to go to some hell hole called work to care for his family or just to spend another day with them. Waking up every morning is easier to do when you have a drive. Some day, sooner than later I hope I am at this state of life. He will most likely never read this or know that I feel this way but he's lucky to have what he has.